1.31.2004

Let it snow...

I love snow. I could probably count the times I've seen it in my life on one hand, and the times I've played in it on one finger. I imagine it gets really old really fast if you have to be around it all the time (especially if you're in Keegan's crappy situation...sympathies, mate. eek), but it's terribly Romantic-sounding (big R, not little r) for we southwestern folk. No matter what college I decide to attend, I'll be in a snowy area (the only school I applied to that wasn't on the east coast was Stanford, and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't go there) and I'll be the first one out on the nearest stretch of fresh snow making snow angels and snow non-gender-specific persons. And participating in violent, bloody snowfights. And building snow forts on a Calvin-and-Hobbes-like scale.

Poll question: Would you rather have the ability to fly or to teleport? Explain why.

(If you choose teleport, dont' justify it by saying, "If I wanted to fly, I could just teleport instantaneously from one spot to a spot very close to it, so if I just did that a lot it would be like stop-motion animation flying and I'd have both." That's just a cop out.)

1.30.2004

It just dumped a ton of snow on Vesuvius and the mountains surrounding Napoli, but not any down here on the coastal plains. However, it is cold enough to be freezing water, which is pretty big here, and even bigger when you run out of heating gas, as we did today. How enjoyable.

1.27.2004

now I walk through blizzards...

The National Weather Service is predicting 6 to 10 inches of snow for the metro area tomorrow night. That's a buttload of snow.

How's the weather for all of you guys?

1.24.2004

Hey Ya

Um... I just wanted to say hi. I've a truckload of work to do, as I'm sure the rest of you have. And, I'm not feeling quite emotionally stable - I just vented in my lj, so I won't do it again. But I'm living... and gettin some stuff done, albeit not always enough.
TASP memory: Teaching Amina Analanalese with Jordan and Krishanu and Nathan. Then she suggested we change the name to Sodomese. Which made it even more fun.
Ianal loveanal TASPanalers. I'm sure you can all figure that out.

Goodness.

Hullo all...So there are people from my school applying to TASP, and I'm super excited because they're both super cool. And we're on the cover of the application, looking super hot.

And I'm now a yellow belt in Tae Kwon Do. I could totally kick your ass. Like whoa.

And my cool little Symphony Belle Ball is on February 7. Yay me - I get to symbolically dress in white and get escorted. Yay for the sexist paradigm. I'm gonna look pretty.

This board has been a little sleepier lately than it has in the past. Post more, loves!

some tasp memories for you, my lovelies

one: adam, seyram, elise (was this you, elise? I'm almost sure it was) and I went on the grand Cornell tour. it was long, and on a really hot day as I recall, and I got completely disoriented somewhere around the school of Industrial and Labor Relations. anyway, we heard about the vending machines with apples in them, and all held hands as we tromped down the paths, and resisted the urge to say something snotty about how we were staying at the Telluride House every time the girl asked for questions.
two: I'm surprised nobody else got this. The Truth or Dare game when Chris ate pie off of Nicki's back? he just kind of flipped it on there. with attitude. it was really great.
three: here it is -- The Real Story Of The Night I Split Open Nathan's Head. hide and seek, in the dark. brendan was my partner. we were It. I am slow, very slow indeed, but when I saw Nathan sprinting for base I thought it was my big chance. I ran up. he ran down. somehow our skulls collided (collid?) in midair. I was laughing hysterically, since this is my automatic response to other people's physical pain (I know, it's horrible, I'm working on it), and then I noticed that he had his hand cupped to his forehead and was bleeding. somebody came up to him, somebody came up to me, somebody pointed out that I had Nathan's blood all over my clothes. I went to go change, and when I came back Amina was taking Nathan to the emergency room. then we all went and played that other game of Truth or Dare, where Elise did a table dance and I held ice to my forehead. awesome.
four: can I just say that it was really fabulous to paint with you guys? whichever committee was in charge of that deserves a big kiss. and then Rafie and Hannah ended up scrubbing paint off the asphalt to avoid Christian's wrath, because we and some other people (Eddie, you were in on that, right?) had done the last painting Pollock-style.

okay, I'm late for class (yes, on a saturday, yargh), got to go, love you all.

1.19.2004

so we are writing sonnets in class, and this si definetly my first attempt at anything but carthardic poetry. and that wasnt very successful either... um so neddless to say i am far from the next shakespeare. we are doing this sequence i think mine is going to be one abotu ideal love, one about real love, and one about dead love. um...i am in a sharing mood today so i thought y'all would love to know. good night

1.18.2004

Lol!

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/entertainment/music/3401901.stm

ahh ... memories of sid at cafe telluride ii ... only this time, rather than a single man and his recorder ... an entire orchestra!

think of you all perpetually.

.christopher.a.rodriguez.
@ 1136 on 18 jan 2004

1.17.2004

celebrations

my eigtheenth year deserves yet another post. today my family birthday party was attended by the love of my life(a boy i have known since i was six and innocently crushed on since then also), perhaps its mutual? but perhaps not, it doesnt really matter it is one of those things. so to make a long story short...
i convinced him to go skinny dipping in the pond in front of my house along with another girl who is my firend and there. so we did, in the middle of ohio january(yes there was ice on the. but in light of the amazing cold we only got down to underwear making this adorable and innocent classic teen movie expereince even more adorable and innocent!(then the three of us went inside and sat with our wet clothese with our feet in the warm bath tub and shared stories. i cant think of a better way to spend my birthday and so i must say that for the first time since my actual birthday i find my self smiling!
well i miss you all and i know for a fact that none of this would ahve happened if i hadnt gone to tasp and learned the value of acting on insanity!
Love, ALina

1.15.2004

hey there

Hey guys! I'm using a computer at our library while I wait to see The Last Samurai. I recently saw Kill Bill, and was pleased with the blood gysers and gurgling noises. Believe it or not, our first showing of Return of the King is just now coming, and will "hit" our theatre on January 17th. I came here today from rifle team, which I hadn't attended in a while due to Xmas break. I was pleased to discover I can still shoot little air rifles. Well, I personally shoot a fairly large air rifle, but the pellets are all the same size (little things, made of lead); we've been instructed not to eat them. Today was a "loose trap" day, which meant that one of the pellet traps wasn't working very well, resulting in a number of our shots bouncing back and hitting us. Harmless if they hit your clothes, but on skin they sting, and sometimes will draw blood. Nor would I care to see how they effect teeth. There really is no point to this letter. Elise, I remember exactly what you're talking about, and I think it a very good memory. How representative of our time together. We might be buying a house in Maine...none of my family has ever been there, but what the hell. My dad'll be going up there in a few weeks to check it out. I find it interesting that so many people wish to try out the whole "dorm experience." It's actually somewhat ironic, because you will spend a year, maybe up to four, in a dorm, and then you're out into the world, whereas I will spend four years in a somewhat less dormlike Telluride house, and then spend anywhere from 4 to 24 years in a "super dorm," the belly of a ship, or, if I'm smart enough, the tummy of a submarine. Well, I'd better get going.

Memory: The never-ending walk to the Salvation Army with Adam. But so, so worth it.

Love yous

1.14.2004

Memory of remembering

One of my favorite TASP memories is of a bunch of us dowstairs on something like the Tuesday or Wednesday after we all arrived. We (I'm sure Miraim was there, and others too) were all talking about our first impressions of each other, of how we all knew each other so much better now, of funny things that had happened.

We were saying things like "remember when..." and "and then there was that time that..." Then we all smiled and laughed when we realized that we had only been there for three days and were telling stories from the previous afternoon as if they were from some long-lost shared childhood. We made connections so quickly that we forgot that we had not known each other all our lives.

Then there was the first house meeting. Up till that point, I had found the seminar horribly mushy and had wanted to leave. All through the first week, though, there was a little thought at the back of my mind telling me I was getting very attached to my fellow taspers. At the house meeting, it was like all the affection came rushing up; I looked around the room and realized that there was just absolutely no way I could leave these people, that I loved everyone and loved the community, and that I was at TASP to stay no matter what.

My love for all of you has not diminished,
Elise

headache ow ow ow

okay, so I just overnighted my Telluride House application this afternoon. Like Alex, I wasn't sure if I actually wanted to do it, and I spent last night trying to convince my mom over the phone that I didn't need to do it, that it was pointless and a waste of time. well, whatever, why not waste something I don't have? so now my college admissions process is officially over until the returns start coming back. hallelujah.
for those of you who haven't heard, I've been having a sort of terrible end of the semester, since my roommate suddenly decided that she hated me and wanted to get me expelled (it's a long story). well, that didn't pan out, and now the word on the street is that she wants to sue me instead. faaaabulous. but I have a wonderful new roommate, and the new semester starts next week, so I'm trying to be optimistic - but do me a favor and send me good, non-incriminating thoughts?
I miss you all, and still owe letters to a lot of you. they're coming eventually, I promise. in the meantime, I may call some of you to let the soothing TASP balm wash over me.

my own TASP memory is coming soon. I have to go or I'll be late for sign-in. I love you all and miss you like hell.

Chris?

I can't talk long, because I'm in school, but I just thought this was worth noting, more important even then my dismal AP Spanish. There is a kid who must be new, because I'd never seen him before at my school. I swear to God he is a spitting image of Chris. From the front you know it's not him, but from any other angle they were identical. Finally, today, unable to take it any longer, I asked him if he had family in Florida. His answer? "Not that I know of..." (With a very strong hint of "Who the Hell are you?") My conclusion? He must be Chris' long lost brother or cousin, who was tragically swapped at birth and now lives unaware of his family connection to Florida. I'll try to take a picture.

Oh, I remember us all standing under the massive tree by the beach volleyball court, and taking turns trying to harpoon our wayward ball. That was very fun, and frustrating, but then rewarding, thus justifying the fun.

1.13.2004

money can buy everything?

i read an artircle in the chinese newspaper yesterday, and i'm still fuming about it. tell me what you think...

about five months ago in china, an old farmer and his wife traveled to the city to sell their crops. all the vegetables were in a "truck-bike" (this isn't the real name! i'm not sure if you guys have seen a picture of this, but it's some kind of cross between the front of a bike and the back of a truck... a very simple, cheap way for farmers to carry their produce to the market). anyway, once the couple entered the city, they were caught up in heavy traffic.

to avoid collision with a cement truck, the farmer made a sharp turn and hit a bmw. the owner of this car, a woman, came out and started yelling at him. the pacify her, the farmer's wife stepped between them and offered to pay for the damage (keep in mind that few people have car insurance in china). instead of calming down, the woman stormed back to her car and stepped on the gas, killing the farmer's wife and injuring twelve other people. the body of the farmer's wife was mangled beyond recognition.

the case was taken to court. it turned out that the owner of the bmw was the wife of a very powerful ceo. her lawyers claimed that she stepped on the gas pedal by accident. she had passed her driver's license test seven years ago, but she claimed she hasn't driven since then. the day of the accident was supposedly her first time driving in seven years.

the verdict? for manslaughter and the injuries of twelve people, the guilty party was sentenced to two years of confinement outside of jail... basically, no punishment. it appears as if money is worth infinitely more than human lives.

such is the case all over china. the country is in a transition from communism to the free market economy. as a result, the gap between the rich and the poor has never been more evident. corruption is everywhere.

i'm going back to china for five weeks this summer. as much as i like going back, it always feels like i'm caught between two worlds. during political functions and dinner parties, there are literally around a hundred dishes per meal. most are rarely touched before they are taken away. the cost of one such meal (usually for ten to fifteen people) often amounts to five digits... no joke. this is the kind of money that the elite has (the ceo and his wife are such people. a few dents on a bmw is nothing to them... certainly less than the cost of throwing a dinner party).

but then i go to the open markets and see people haggling over the price of vegetables- five cents for a kg of carrots or six cents?

it's so frustrating because there doesn't seem to be a solution in sight....

1.12.2004

alina

i am to post more later, i promise. but i jsut wanted to randomly announce that it is my birthday and i love you all! i am currently filling out that app for telluride house, which was some of the most painless essay writing i have done this year. life is good when one feels inspired. now i am trying to generate some poetic ability to write sonnets for english but so far i cant seem to fit my thought to the ryme scheme(maybe because i have no idea on how to spell that word). so my big 18 experiece as buying a lottery ticket in the scratch lottery from a gas station attendent who didnt even ID me(bummer) and losing happily my first dollar in what may become a life time of gambling. well we will see. i will post more random stories including tasp memories later.
but i feel chris is due his due for the effort he put in so here is mine about him...
i like lists so here is a list
!.chris as socrates(the single most unforgettable performance i have ever seen)
2.chris in my pj pants, which were at least a foot too short
3.chris patiently explaining the difference between miami beach and miami(if i even got that right now)
4.chris laughing and the entire room involuntarily exploding into laughter with him

update

Oh, those hot, hot latin-americans!

what now, isa? looks like the chileans win the hot, hot, hot award! but you can still dance like a cool latin man, so i guess you win an award too.

guess what? it's 900 and i haven't done any work yet! hoooray for senioritis. and i think i'm not going to apply to the telluride house...even though i'm applying to cornell. i think i want the whole on-campus freshman thing. i think...i dunno, talk to me about it. what do you all think?

love

-- alex

1.11.2004

live journal

my live journal username is carodriguez, i don;t know how to get a link on the side thingy so if you could help me out with that (sid) i would appreciate it. there's not much there as of yet, but im getting there slowly ... i hate computers. later guys

my memories

I am so evil. As an extreme sentimentalist, I feel it is my duty to enumerate thirty seven memories of TASP .. one for each ‘TASPer’. I know this is going to be super long. sorry. i love you all even though it is not readily evident in my administration of the ensuing torture.


Memory Number One: Tosin
Sometimes, I kneel at the side of my bed and pray thanks to God for having Tosin and Brandon in the same room as me when I was in seminar. Some mornings just seemed too early and Tosin and Brandon could just go on and on, it seemed, in vehement (and perhaps sometimes long-winded) argument.

Memory Number Two: Dammit Janice?
Wow. It was really late in the TASP and I thought I knew everyone. But.. who was that girl that was so fervent about Hannah's PubSpeak? First impressions are always lasting, but Janice's was amazingly so. Before that night I remembered Janice's name by singing the Rocky Horror Picture Show song imagining the subjects of Wood's American Gothic painting singing monotonously 'Jannette' (which somehow sounds like 'Janice' in my head). But after that night, my memories of Janice were of a great conversation, learning not only of Hannah's home perspective, but of Janice's very different one. Gochu manchodto twao!

Memory Number Three: Ashley (Apples)
Barefoot for the first time in the kitchen with both a feeling of grueling dirtiness and college on my mind, Ashley fell victim. What colleges are you looking at? I don't remember the response exactly, but I do remember the names of a couple small liberal arts colleges. I inquired about the 'Harvard girl look' of which she gave me the impression. I'm not sure if Ashley was offended or disgustingly curious, but a long conversation proceeded. It wasn't until pretty much everyone else's day at Buttermilk when I really knew Ashley, but that's a whole 'nother memory.

Memory Number Four: Davie
We were bad, bad children. Sitting outside of the House.. after eleven pm?! Who let these kids into TASP?! (lol.) David sat across from me, being a slightly worse TASPer than I was (according to the TASP Commandments), and we had a rather depressing conversation. Shhh.
Fortunately I have many other memories of Davie -- both TASP and post-TASP.

Memory Number Five: Dustin
In a milieu of amateurism, the air of a lieutenant that emanated from Dustin as we played Risk on the floor of the basement was most enthralling and rather forced me to resign as commander of (what was it?) Australia quite early in the game. That, and dinner clean-up duty in the kitchen right in the middle of the game.

Memory Number Six: J
Oh so many memories of Jordan. What? Aporetic apple eating? An impeccable impersonation of Dara? Smacking me of the bottom with a metal stick as Phiddipides (was it for the sake of perpetuating Sadism or Classicism?) Drawing his face on a Fluxus Balloon? Oh man! ? (in a Scandinavian influenced Japanese.. ) 'Anatano ochinchin sawa'te ideska?' Being Emily Dickinson while gleefully enjoying the penetration of Satan's spiked phallus? A plethora of post-TASP conversations? -- I love compound memories.

Memory Number Seven: Alina
In the early morning hours of the opening of the Motherfluxer happening, we all eagerly anticipated the sight of the rising sun. Something happened and Alina ended up rolling down the front lawn and scraping her knee. Its all fun and games until someone gets their knee scraped. What the heck .. i was still fun and games afterward (just a bit more cautious-like)

Memory Number Eight: Greg
At lunch on the first day, Greg was the kid that thought broccoli was the best thing that came in it's shape.

Memory Number Nine: Rachel
Rachel, Rachel; oh how I miss you. I remember it was like the third night and we had a quasi-successful discussion on the Apology that lasted until pretty late. I think Jordan was the first to leave and then Tina came and all of this shifting happened. Eventually I think it was pretty much Rachel and I that were left and a great talk ensued. Little did I know that many more would too.

Memory Number Ten: Brendan
Just looking at the spelling of Brendan’s name makes the Pixies blast full-volumen in my head. Images of Brendan’s really convincing, sage-like voice also arises in my head as he spoke during seminar. Also, a high Rocky Mountain scene with a Hawaiian seascape at its foot. But those aren’t really memories are they. Oh well, I like it and I’m leaving them.

Memory Number Eleven: Alexis
The memory that most sticks with me with Alexis in it is rather sad. I made an ass of myself in this memory (not unlike most of my memories, in general). But in this one, I tenaciously didn’t believe Krishanu when he was trying to tell me something serious, thinking it was a sick joke. After that day, I always regretted acting like such a social clod in front of Alexis, who barely knew me.

Memory Number Twelve: Brandon
How could I forget that eager Michiganite's face asking me to wrestle with him right there in the middle of the common room? How? Just, how?

Memory Number Thirteen: Chris
One word: Strepsiades. I guess that's the best memory of me for me at TASP lol. That was hard to do.

Memory Number Fourteen: (Not Chris) Krishanu
Really excellent development of philosophical abstract ideas. In seminar, the days were otherwise uneventful until an adolescent Indian from Texas raises an orgasmically tight fist in the air in what looks like sweaty triumph as Brandon argues against the omnipresence of Sarah Lucia.

Memory Number Fifteen: Pi
Luckily I did not have to be in the same room as Tina while Dara and Christian gave me the ‘no-PDA’ talk in regards to Tina. Oh jeez: the thunderous laughter that may have occurred if they only knew at that moment that I’d be getting the same talk in about a week concerning Krishanu. Let’s just afttribute this oddity to my propensity for open affection that I didn’t ever have until TASP.

Memory Number Sixteen: Rima
Dyed hair and really high socks. What more can I say besides kinda long walks to and from the Christian Science Meeting House?

Memory Number Seventeen: Blaen
I’m a compulsive photo taker (duh). As a result, the memories that most stick with me are those instilled in the instantaneousness of my photos. When I think of Blaen I can’t help but see that picture of her on the TASP Sleeperzzzz Page of our yearbook.

Memory Number Eighteen: Sid
I'm saddened by the fact that my memory of Sid is rather mediocre and everyone probably has it. But, nonetheless, the memory of Sid freaking out and typing in quick spurts, then pressing backspace a lot, and going back to thinking is amazingly flamboyant in my mind.

Memory Number Nineteen: Guava?
Seyram would always be the quiet kid in my eyes.. if it weren't for that night in the kitchen. It was pretty late in TASP but that didn't keep Seyram from preaching in the kitchen about I-don't-remember-what. A few days later he poured his heart out again at Cafe Telluride Two.

Memory Number Twenty: HAruko
Hey, Chris! 'You wanna roll?
YES!!!
My memories are rather dizzy from that point on.

Memory Number Twenty-One: Isa
It was really late and the discussion began in the seminar two room and continued down to the kitchen. Isa and I ventured to desarrollar the ideas that I would otherwise pass off for another day. We reached a beautiful conclusion after much debated and passing back and forth and bouncing and what not. It was excellent and perfect. I don't remember anything about it, sadly, except that it was really smart. I remember a societal perspective on the film Castaway, but ... damn!

Memory Number Twenty-Two: Miriam
I’m glad our relationship evolved because I’d say for a good two-thirds of TASP there was his weird chemistry between Miriam and I. I think we finally got over it in the late hours of the night (a weird trend is developing concerning the times I interacted with people at TASP) when she, Keegan, Krishanu, and I had a long and awesome conversation about character eccentricities.

Memory Number Twenty-Three: Rafie
The most beautiful combinations of words is that from which I will forever benefit in knowing Rafie. He always had a way of saying just the right thing to convey what he was thinking or feeling. I hope to have that power some day, whether by words or by paint or by melody.

Memory Number Twenty-Four: Alex
Perhaps my most vivid memory of Alex is post-TASP, but I wouldn't feel right talking about it here. But, my TASP memory of Alex is.. not really TASP either! I'm saying it (what the Hell!). It's actually pre-TASP and he and his parents were on a Cornell tour and so were me and my mother. It was fun to listen to his parents actually give the tour since they knew more about Cornell than did the guide (having gone there themselves).

Memory Number Twenty-Five: Hannah
Ochinchin! How appropriate that it rained the last day; it obviously wasn't only the sky that was pouring. I think that alone says enough to recall this memory. But, an equally vivid memory (Memory Number Twenty-Five point Five, I suppose), is on the front porch of the House. I knew Hannah was busy with seminar work, did that stop me from talking to her? Hell no! We talked for a while about painting and our apparently differing views on AP Art, a conversation I was glad to have continued another day. Saranheo!

Memory Number Twenty-Six: the Best Roommate Ever
One percent of my Adam memories (rather ironically enough) did not occur in our room. Is it me, or was Adam always in really athletic clothes? (I think it was just me). But how I best remember Adam (and I know this wasn’t just me) was with a piece of ice cream paraphernalia in his mouth. Fudgcicle? IcePop? Snickers? Whatever was in the freezer, Adam had it. But those IcePops were so irresistible! (who could blame him?)

Memory Number Twenty-Seven: Linda Louie!
How relieved I became to find out I wasn't the only person in the world to have taken an interest in the life of Jonathon Livingston Seagull. Then, yoga on the balcony convinced me that Linda is one of the coolest people ever. (one of thirty six or so, that is.)

Memory Number Twenty-Eight: Elise
My most flagrant memory of Elise was the dress she wore to one of the TASP dances. WHOA! Congratulations, Elise, on that thing that was barely there! Elise is by far the most extreme and courageous person I have ever met and that kind of stuff just sticks.

Memory Number Twenty-Nine: Mo' Keegan Dan Keegan, Yo
Walking around on the second floor always entailed an odd attraction to the unusually small-for-three-roommates room. My ear always drew me there because of the variegated and beautiful sounds of Keegan's music selection. Plus the green hair!

Memory Number Thirty: Eddie
Oh how precious it is to see a repented Hispanic (with whom I can very much identify) stand in front of a crowd of his peers and watch as he raps some of that good ol' Old School. Eddie's PubSpeak was awesome .. and so is his yearbook page.

Memory Number Thirty-One: Oh Nikki
Nikki and Alina we sitting on the brown couch on the first day of TASP and were getting along so well that I thought they had known each other well before TASP. When a few of us translocated to the basement to play I don't remember what board game, Nikki said something that made me think 'Whoa! I can't believe she just said that.' Soon I figured out that Nikki's sweet appearance is matched by an equally maniacal cynicism because of which I loved her more.

Memory Number Thirty-Two: Nancy
Oh Nancy. Should I talk about that confusing game, Go, or about the first TASPer I ever met? Had I met any other TASPer first, I'd probably be calling my mom and asking her to take me home (of course, by that logic, it follows that had the kangaroo never existed, the telephone may have never been invented by Bell). The thing I best remember about my first Nancy-esque encounter was my great difficulty in deciding what I should tell everyone to call me. Luckily, you all figured it out for me.

Memory Number Thirty-Three: (Ma) Dara
Arguably, my best TASP memory was untangling yarn in Dara's room. Lol (?). I was in there for a chat during a time when a chat was really needed; it was incredible. Soon I found my obsessive compulsive self untangling Dara's yarn. The conversation continued well into the night. I believe it was two nights later when she volunteered to eat an heaping spoonful of Diamond Crystal Kosher Salt, thus confirming her place as the Cc- World's Greatest Factotum..

Memory Number Thirty-Four: Christian
Oh how I can talk about Fluxus right now.. but, I won't. The weirdest moment at TASP had to be when Christian asked me to go to the coffee shop with him. I immediately wondered if he does that for everyone, and hoped he did. But, during and after an amazing conversation with him on architecture, interests, and all that stuff, I felt really special and hoped that I actually was the only one with whom he did this. I was crushed when I found out that that wasn't the case. (not really, lol).

Memory Number Thirty-Five: Amina
I am certain that if I could remember the thoughts that go on in my head while I am asleep that I would be even stranger a person, perhaps it is this that makes me the ‘strange’ person I am. Whatever the case, I am comforted of this reality only because I am certain that I have had a nightmare concerning Amina turning me really small and then stepping on me. That was, of course, before I found out how great a thinker, and how great a person, she is.

Memory Number Thirty-Six: Nathan
All I remember of Nathan is him laughing at me when I was around. (lol). I have that effect on some people. Other than that, I remember on black-out night when he emerged from his subterranean dwelling and joined us in candlelit TASP life for those hours.

Memory Number Thirty-Seven: K-8 (and Chris)
Mmmm. TASP would not have been as great as it was without the breakfasts, lunches, and dinners and I think clean-ups and cookings gave us all a great appreciation for what all exactly the people who mysteriously seemed to reside in the House kitchen did for our summer experience.

Memory Number .. Shut-Up-Already aka the ‘WaitWait!-I-Have-A-Bonus-Memory Memory
Who could forget being exhausted on a Thursday afternoon (I believe) and sitting in the hot Goldwyn-Smith Building listening to Tom Connelly’s captivating lecture on ancient French poetry?!


that is all.

.christopher.a.rodriguez.

1.10.2004

This is kinda disturbing.

Formation of phosgene during welding activities in an atmosphere containing chlorinated hydrocarbons.

More or less: if I drain my 15 year old fridge's Freon coolant and pass it over an open flame, I can make mustard gas.

That's pretty freakin' scary.

1.09.2004

TASP Memory

Not everyone was there for this, but a group of us girls (Nikki, Blaen, Tina, Linda, and myself... I think) went to get desserts at Eat Desserts First, and we took a looong route - since it was only the first week, and our collective cartographic memories sucked. On our way back (on yet another route), we walked passed some frat houses. While in front of one of these, we heard "hey you girls wanna join us in the hot tub?" the 'hot tub', as we were to see, was just a big wooden basin. Politeness getting the better of us, we said, "No, thank you" as opposed to the "Fuck, no" that I had in my head. Yet the frat guy persisted with, "we've got extra swimming suits inside." After declining (again politely, though i'm really not sure why) and walking away Nikki said "ewwww, extra suits? Like he expects me to get in that gonorrhea-infested pool in someone else's clothing."
It was, to say the least, highly amusing. And when we told Amina she was like "ya, frat boys think they've got it made with naive high school girls walking around campus." Which made us laugh even more.
Also, staying up with Greg on like the third night, talking till four am about absolutely nothing while wrapped up in my blanket.
I miss you guys. I'm counting the months, and my calendar says 8 until I'm in the States again. Hopefully we can all meet before school starts!

1.08.2004

!

the mobile war-machine {cornell tasp 2003}

well, there were just a flurry of posts today, so I'm wrong.

one thing to remember: always press "post and publish." don't just hit post.

one tasp memory:

I was in the dining room, and Isa comes out of the kitchen holding his hand -- his finger was bleeding. I asked him something on the lines of "Jesus, man, what the fuck did you do to yourself?"

Apparently he had been cleaning out the fridge or something (side note: if any of you ever left the fridge door open, I have a bucket of icy cold, greenish water in a bucket for you) and had caught his finger in the metal grating inside and cut it to the bone.

I got out the first aid kit and taped him up, and he was thence fine.

memory two: more of a generalized trend, really -- watching Cornell II people going all woozy all around, but being the only one to have a bedtime set by Xian because I was the lucky one to be sitting across from him when I dozed off.

hmm.

[[[here to expose ourselves]]]

y'know, the Texas TASPers seem to post to their blog a heckuva lot more than we do. That's sorta peculiar and depressing.

But on the other hand, there still are a bunch of you who tend to have bizarre technical difficulties with blogging... dunno what to do.

my newspaper

OK, so here is a rough copy of my newspaper, please, i need feedback before i publish this thing at schoolThe Euphemism2.0.wpd

con amor,
rafie

hi all

done applying to college, life is better. well, life still sucks for a lot of reasons. but it's better for that. and i haven't applied to the house yet...i should get on that. and happy new year, even though i said it already.

-- alex

18!

yay! I am 18, in the eyes of the law at least! my body is technically still 17 years-old since i was born at like 9:30pm. As soon as i get my $2 garage sale bike, i will personally delivery one or all of my newspapers to all. The one i co-edit with a guy who made out with my sister at new years is called The Abyss ( i write the poetry under the pseudonym Alessandor del Piero [also a sexy italian soccer star on Juventus but whatever]) I have a satirical one called The Pebble and i have numerous personas which i write through instead of a writing staff. the last is my raw baby. I finished the first issue yesterday and it ir just my raging liberal rants in two-column form.

i was going to play soccer toady, for my birthday but my dad got all pissed off. i didnt argue with him, not for today. all but one of my school friends remembered my birthday even though i told many of them yesterday. then i received an amazing letter from Linda. it was delivered as "Extremely Urgent" so that it would get here on my birthday. she makes me so happy.

i love you all
rafie

I completely agree with Linda, and I am an avid supporter of her TASP booster idea. Unfortunately, I don't have time to write a vivid memory right now, as our phone service is about to be shut off...we're getting ripped off, and we've entered a private war with the phone company. Love you all, I will write a memory when we win. (notice the cocky US military attitude)

1.07.2004

a tasp memory.

In vivid detail, per Linda's request. Excuse the possible boringness.

The beginning. The first person I met was Dustin. He was standing outside my room, mulling around or such, while I was setting up with my parents. I went outside and introduced myself, then went back in to set up. Once all that was finished, I went back out to the area in front of the stairs on the second floor - you know, where the really comfy couch is against the railing? Where someone would always fall asleep? - and people were there. Brendan was there, sitting on top of the left wooden partition between the branch office and the hallway, and Isa was sitting next to him. I remember Isa most clearly...He was wearing this really bright blue shirt. I went around asking people's names, and I could not pronounce Isa's name AT ALL. The closest I got in those first few minutes was something that resembled the words "say yes." A bunch of us stood in a circle...I don't remember everyone who was there, but I think Elise was, and maybe Janice. I just remember wanting to get to know everyone, to see everyone from every perspective on the first day, so I kept migrating from one place in the circle to another. People noticed, and it was sort of funny. It was sunny outside, and not too hot, which I remember thinking was very nice.

One tasp memory. I'll try to think of more.

happy nondenominational holiday season

My dear taspers! I'm back at Interlochen after going home to sunny (mostly) Tucson for winter break. I saw Rachel, Rima, and Rafie as planned, and they were all doing well. Rachel and Rima and I walked around Tucson and went to lunch. It was great to see them again, but as Rachel said, odd not to be able to say "Let's go to the gorges!" or pick up a few extra taspers on the way.

I've been talking with Keegan and a few other people, and we both agree that our tasp memories have started to fade. Inevitable? God, no, I don't think so. Part of what I love about communicating with taspers (as sketchy as I am about it) is seeing tasp memories from other people's perspectives. So I have a twofold proposition for anybody who wants to help me try to give our tasp a little shot in the arm, a little whatever-you-call-that-thing-where-people-in-the-emergency-room-stick-you-with-electric-paddles.
1. tasp memories. anybody? just sketch out a tasp moment with as much detail as possible. maybe together we can remember things we've individually forgotten.
2. getting in touch with people who haven't been doing it themselves. I'm not the best keep-in-toucher, but I have made an effort to stay in touch with many of you. has anybody heard lately from ashley? blaen? seyram? greg? janice? I know there are more people. probably there are little pockets of intertasper communication going on still - I know I have some - and I want to break them open, get us all talking to each other again. because that was what made tasp so amazing -- that I felt comfortable talking to anyone and everyone in that House. what with modern technology being what it is, I don't see why we should lose that.
3. okay, so I know I said this was twofold, but for those of you livejournal holdouts, c'mon, just get a livejournal? please? you don't need codes anymore, as Elise said, and even if you rarely write in it, there's a certain openness to livejournal that I don't feel anywhere else. and I know there are taspers with livejournals who rarely write things on the blog (*cough*me*cough*). maybe I'm just being selfish because lj is my preferred mode of mass communication, but it won't hurt you to try it. some of you - I'm thinking of Chris specifically right now - would probably really like it. just go to livejournal.com and check it out. Please?

I love you all and I don't want to lose you. It's been a whole semester now, and all of us who have been meaning to keep in touch but not getting around to it need to start doing it now. I want to hear from all 32 of you (34 actually - anybody heard from Xian and Dara?) and I promise I'll write back, although it may take me awhile.

It's 10 degrees Fahrenheit here, but I love you all still.

Linda

1.03.2004

happy new year .. for real this time

ah. new beginnings. i just realised that it's a really appropriate time for thinking about what i've been thinking about today; i really got the urge to bounce these thoughts onto others (ie. you all) and listen.

so i was gesso-ing a canvas today .. but not quite: it's not really gesso-ing because i don't use gesso (i use house paint: it comes in larger volumes for cheaper prices), and it's not really gesso-ing a canvas because i don't work on canvas (i work on vinyl).

anyway, (loti) i got to thinking: 'wow, i wish i could just leave it like this: an unprimed canvas: what could be more beautiful. it's like birth. how else can one depict it?' two things shot up in my mind: (first) 'ok, but that's a huge waste of vinyl'; (and second) 'plus, that sounds like a cop-out excuse for not wanting to take a risk'.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that birth is beautiful and all (in fact, there may be little more that is more beautiful), but there are probably things that are just as beautiful. since birth is the first experience of any given thing, it follows that one experiences nothing beautiful (besides birth, which i will dare to call worthless to the subject do to the very frequent lack of memory of the event) unless they live: unless they continue the life that they were bequeathed.

if i were to just leave the thing as it is, it means that it never develops (and quite frankly, if i cared what the critics thought, i'd be terrible heart-broken to read any review ... i suppose not very many people are as sentimental as i am). but who's to say that it isn't fully developed at birth?

am i even clear? i guess this is my dilemma. should i start a million paintings and leave them at the start? or, should i start one painting and add on to it forever? should i find the happy medium? if so, what is that? is the 'happy medium' when the piece has developed to an aethetic ideal? an ideal of containing meaning? i'm crazy?

i'm on AIM more often now or just blog it; but please i yearn for dialogue.

happy new year! yey we're graduating!

.christopher.

question

how poorly can you do in your grades without having your acceptance revoked? How about for the Telluride house? For instance is a D in AP Spanish enough to ruin everything, even if my GPA is over 3.3? How about an F? Am I screwed? Take into account that my next lowest grade is a B, and it is an AP course so how's that?

1.02.2004

Socrates Café

I'm currently reading Socrates Café by Christopher Phillips and I think it's a fun, easy read that may help popularize philosophy. Anyway, I think Cornell I people might want to check it out. I like it.

"Giving Philosophy Back to the People":
A Profile of Christopher Phillips

by Josh Glenn

Chris Phillips used to be a journalist and photographer, a public school teacher, and a college instructor with three master's degrees. Today, at forty, he's underemployed, deeply in debt, and completely ecstatic about how his life has turned out.

While studying for a master of arts in teaching at Montclair State University in 1996, Phillips chanced to pick up Existentialism from Dostoevsky to Sartre, the seminal collection of existentialist and protoexistentialist texts that Walter Kaufmann compiled in 1956 as a means of preparing humankind for a genuinely philosophical form of life. Something Phillips read in Kaufmann's introduction to the book soon sent him rocketing across America, visiting jails, hospices, nursing homes, and other public venues-all on his own dime. "I didn't have any master plan when I started doing this," he told me recently. "I just had this little idea: Let's give philosophy back to the people."

"More than anyone else who's ever lived," Phillips insists, "Socrates models for us philosophy in practice-philosophy as deed, as a way of living, as something that any of us can do. The Socratic method is a way to seek truths by your own lights; it is a system, a spirit, a method, a type of philosophical inquiry, an intellectual technique, all rolled into one." Having decided to bring Socrates' mordant, incisive methods of philosophical to ordinary men and women around the country, Phillips started what he calls the Socrates Café. By which he means a bunch of people getting together in a café or coffeehouse for a couple of hours and, with the help of a facilitator, applying the Socratic method to some question that troubles them: What is Truth? What is Justice? What is a Philosopher?

This kind of group effort, Phillips argues, is the best possible antidote to traditional philosophy lectures, which create a hierarchy of philosopher and student. He doesn't charge for his services, because "it would be sacrilege to charge people when you learn much more from them than they could ever learn from you." A Socrates Café is nontechnical, and though it may become erudite, the participants-including the ones who've never read a word of philosophy in their lives-can't help but become expert at Phillips's brand of philosophical inquiry. "A Socrates Café is a home for a lot of people who've never felt at home in academia, including academics," Phillips explains. "It's not in any way, shape, or form antiacademic, but it does hopefully expand and broaden the range of inquiry, to the way philosophers used to be, when they would look at any and every question under the sun."

How, exactly, does one facilitate a Socrates Café? Apparently, you just have to keep asking yourself: "What would Socrates do?" Remember, Socrates presented himself as a perplexed inquirer who knew only that he knew nothing; by example, he showed that the proper business of the philosopher-and, by extension, a Socrates Café facilitator-is to help us see that we don't know nearly as much as we think we know.

Do Socrates Café participants ever arrive at an answer to their questions? "It's not about coming up with answers but finding a way to ask the questions, which, in a way, is the answer," Phillips replies enigmatically. "Those who become smitten with the Socratic method of philosophical inquiry thrive on the question. They never run out of questions, or out of new ways to question. In fact," he concludes, "some of Socrates Café's most avid philosophizers are, for me, the question personified."

look what i can do!

Sid taught me to do this, so read the article cuz i can link it now. it's exciting! plus it's a good article.

BBC NEWS | Europe | Moscow police haul in 'Bin Laden'

-- Alex

1.01.2004

Happy New Year

At the risk of being really redundant, happy new year to you all. Wanna know what excites me about this year? Graduation and seeing you all again. For the most part, the one facilitates the other in my case.
I wish I could call each and everyone of u randomly, but that aint gonna happen unless i buy a phone card. Or a roll thereof. Ah well.
Best Wishes for the New Year.

P.S. Has anyone noticed how random and rambling my posts are?

new years

2004--
i've been waiting 4 long years for this and now it's here
graduation for me is may 17 2004
but then again we will only have another 4 years to gnaw through
lucky us c/o 2008
hope everyone's new years eve was fun and explosive
always
tina

hahah

and speaking of crazy new years eves...

read this: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/africa/3359311.stm

-- Alex

happy happy

it's been said a million times before, and it will be said a million times again. happy new year. and i hope it's a good one, maybe even as good as the last one (but not quite as good cuz there'll be no tasp).

i sent out college applications. they're done. i'm happy, but i wish i knew now. oh well. i'm going to stop thinking about it.

i had fun tonight...with people. people i know. and it was fun. how very non-descript of me. oh well.

i had more fun last night when i saw mccoy tyner, bobby hutcherson, joe lovano, charnett...someone, and eric harland at iridium. they're jazz people, and it's a jazz club. mccoy tyner's my FAVORITE jazz pianist. it was waaaaaaaaay cool. my dad took me in honor of me getting out my college apps.

if anyone feels like listening, i feel like screaming my head off about losing one of my best friends. but that's a complicated story for another time, or for personal contact. so if anyone wants to ask me about it, go right ahead. that way, i can yell at you what i can't yell at him (maybe).

that's all for now. have a happy!

-- Alex